Buttered Toast

Have you ever saw a mouth watering food?

Melting cheese on a hot bun, pizza topping dropping...

All the herbs savoring your nose!

The problem is, you can't eat it.

You can't afford to buy it.

It is not yours. It is not destined to be yours.

Ever.

Sad, isn't?

I love kids, I just do.

I don't have any grudge although my childhood is horrible.

I swear, one of the worst memories in my life.

Childhood sucks and so is high school.

I love kids laughter, I love their stubby hands.

I love how they freely roam around and touch me with smile.

I love how kids can bring joy into my heart.

I don't know why.

But I am afraid to play with them at times.

Cause parents will look at me and observe me.

Is this creature a harm to my child?

I hate being judged with all the things I do.

I hate people who judge with the way people look.

When all you want to do is GIVE.

When all you want to do is LOVE.

Why do people criticize you on little things...

People hate people who are better than them.

Many people hates GIVING kind of people.

They will label you as a show off.

It irritates me, why are you all heartless?

How an act of kindness can be a show off.

FUCK YOU ALL.

I hate it when I do something I love

And someone will smile or grin saying,

"Why the fuck are you doing that?"

I want to cut their slit and pour acid on their faces.

I hate mean people.

I hate comments. I hate their opinions.

Why can't you all be HAPPY that someone 

is given a chance to reach out?

You all live in a material world where you of course...

PRIORITIZE yourself.

Stupid bunch of assholes.

When I am eating at a restaurant or fast food

I leave TIPS greater than what I am actually eating.

Why? Cause I know what it feels to SERVE others

and not given the recognition I DESERVE.

I know how to give not because I am rich.

Not because I have plenty.

But I know what it feels like to have

NOTHING at all in life.

I've been in dark times of my life and scarcity ate me.

Time where no one helped me, even my friends.

I am in hunger, I am in need.

I am in deep depression...

FUCK YOU ALL.

People are just there when 

you have something to give.

I hate this, I hate it.