Buttered Toast

Have you ever saw a mouth watering food?

Melting cheese on a hot bun, pizza topping dropping...

All the herbs savoring your nose!

The problem is, you can't eat it.

You can't afford to buy it.

It is not yours. It is not destined to be yours.

Ever.

Sad, isn't?

I love kids, I just do.

I don't have any grudge although my childhood is horrible.

I swear, one of the worst memories in my life.

Childhood sucks and so is high school.

I love kids laughter, I love their stubby hands.

I love how they freely roam around and touch me with smile.

I love how kids can bring joy into my heart.

I don't know why.

But I am afraid to play with them at times.

Cause parents will look at me and observe me.

Is this creature a harm to my child?

I hate being judged with all the things I do.

I hate people who judge with the way people look.

When all you want to do is GIVE.

When all you want to do is LOVE.

Why do people criticize you on little things...

People hate people who are better than them.

Many people hates GIVING kind of people.

They will label you as a show off.

It irritates me, why are you all heartless?

How an act of kindness can be a show off.

FUCK YOU ALL.

I hate it when I do something I love

And someone will smile or grin saying,

"Why the fuck are you doing that?"

I want to cut their slit and pour acid on their faces.

I hate mean people.

I hate comments. I hate their opinions.

Why can't you all be HAPPY that someone 

is given a chance to reach out?

You all live in a material world where you of course...

PRIORITIZE yourself.

Stupid bunch of assholes.

When I am eating at a restaurant or fast food

I leave TIPS greater than what I am actually eating.

Why? Cause I know what it feels to SERVE others

and not given the recognition I DESERVE.

I know how to give not because I am rich.

Not because I have plenty.

But I know what it feels like to have

NOTHING at all in life.

I've been in dark times of my life and scarcity ate me.

Time where no one helped me, even my friends.

I am in hunger, I am in need.

I am in deep depression...

FUCK YOU ALL.

People are just there when 

you have something to give.

I hate this, I hate it.

What Makes Me Sick

People who ONLY knows the words "Fuck", "Actually", "Like"and uses

it so often to cuss and make fun of people. Can you be more imaginative?

Fuck you all get a dictionary, read a book and stop relying on T.V!

People who goes with the trend.

Why can't you all decide on your own? Don't follow a pattern.

I will only accept that sick reason if you really KNOW what you are

in or what you are fighting for.

People who uses other people.

You know who you are, you make me so SICK!

From politicians down to people in this area.

If you want to achieve something, get up and work for it!

STOP playing with other peoples feelings, you sick creatures!

People who is constantly jealous and will do anything

to bring other people down.

The heck do you want? Be contented. If not, then CHANGE!

Life is hard, if you want something do something.

IF it is impossible, then try a new outlet!

People who loves GOSSIPS.

People who share gossips, tell gossips and mostly people

who knows someone is telling GOSSIPS yet they play with it!

FUCK YOU so much. 

This planet is degraded with people like you in it!

Why don't you use that talent of yours in other  GOOD things.

People who buy things they don't NEED, they don't LIKE

but just buys it to impress others.

FUCK, wake up! You are a prey on the New Order!

You accept this crap? Yeah, how about spending it for more

PRACTICAL things. Things that truly make you happy or

more over, share your blessings!

People who don't stand on their beliefs.

What are you? A vanilla extract to harmonize the room?

Well fuck that. You should get up there and pull the trigger!

One way or another in everything you do, people will hate you.

Don't worry...

The feeling is MUTUAL.

There Is No High

School.

People posting all about how they are nostalgic.

How happy, how heartfelt.

I don't even... well I, kind of give some

appreciation to some moments in school but not until college.

And not until I meet two of my friends in college who is genuine.

Preschool is the beginning of all the misery in my life.

I mean, not really... maybe before entering it.

Kids are making fun of me, calling me a pig and ugly being.

Well, as what I expect on humans.

They delight on someone who is not in the standards of society.

If you are different, you are ugly. You are uncool.

You have to be beaten to death and be killed.

They made me feel that, a lot.

Some people will laugh at my life like are you kidding me?

They can't believe bullying is happening.

Shut the fuck up you assholes.

You don't know my life, you don't know where I've been.

You are all a bunch of morons who know so little

about the freaking world while making yourself look cool.

Well, delve yourself in a society where I pity people.

Cause they are making all the adjustments to be fitted.

People loves filling my bag with all the crazy stuff then they will laugh hard.

They don't even know I knew what they did.

How pathetic, how stupid.

How fucking low can all people go.

I hate it, cause they are stupid.

Talking behind my back, laughing at my attire, putting my name on

a circulating paper entitled, "Who's the ugliest fag?" and such.

It sucks when there are group projects or any activities.

I can do it all by myself, it just sucks cause when I am in their group

I will see the disgusts in their faces and I want to just leave

the fuck out of them, like I don't even pick this in the first place.

Well I never groom those time.

Cause every time I put something on like a head band

or something, they will be like...

"Look at her, it doesn't suit her."

And more freaking comments.

Like why don't you all leave me alone?

I am uncool right then why are you people always updated with

what new on me or what I am doing in my freaking life.

People wants to know the latest update to pick on you.

Yeah, that's how it goes.

Really funny how I let myself go.

People will only talk to me to do them a FAVOR.

Like draw them something, buy them something...

And I can't say NO to something I love doing.

Like helping... I don't know I want to have a friend but

turns out they are all using me.

After the favor, they will never talk to me...not until a new favor comes in a way.

Just because you are good looking, got high grades, good at something or whatever 

you are fucking pride of, it does not mean you can hurt

anyone or anything with that stupid edge of yours.

Fuck you all, people who are heads are in the clouds.

Fuck you all.

I hate guys, I hate girls...

I hate them.

Just fuck off and stay away from me.

Why do you have to pretend you want to make friends

or like me when the truth is...you hated me, you laugh over me.

I hate being so observant, I hate being such a good predictor.

I hate it cause I know all the actions they will do.

Like they will act concern and ask about you when all they wanna

do is get some information on how miserable my life is.

Seriously, get a life.

Like the fuck are you saying I should get a life?

I have my own life, why don't you MIND your own.

Or in case you want to mind others life maybe

helping should be one of your motives...

not belittling others.

Scumbag people. 

All you know is reading magazines and watching T.V

Fuck you all.

You are all perfect example for someone I don't like this

generation to become.

Like how does making a poem or expressing their thoughts

became labeled as, "Emo" or "Deep"?

Fuck. Is this what happens when someone vocabulary is wide?

You make me all laugh. I really want to kill the shit out of everyone.

The Only Skit

There is no illusion in my eyes when I see people.

They are dumb, dumber, dumbest.

It is so ironic how I judge them when I am so loving.

It is so ironic to say, "They are all dumb."

when I am dumb myself.

When I want peace and kindness, I only saw few creatures

who are capable of doing this kind of things.

This planet is rotting and the more you express

your stand, the more they will succumb and contradict.

Well, as what I expected, greedy creatures.

To forgive always, I do that shit all the time

and at the end I find myself being betrayed.

People are so pathetic for being remorse and constant.

Constant on seeking attention, I hate attention.

Politicians, actors, cool labeled kids, freaking attention whores.

It is so comforting to stay alone than to be with 

two faced witches who will stab you anyway.

You can't trust anyone but yourself.

I don't fucking care if they will label me.

Antisocial? Creep. 

I like it when people lies to me and I know

they are fucking lying because I mastered 

reading people's minds.

And I will play dumb, I will pull out my lower I.Q appearance

to them and dress like shit for a more convincing manner.

I lie. People lie. But the truth is, I don't really lie.

Because if I really want to lie, why am I bursting my own bubble.

Like, right now.

I like it when people are arguing and they detest me.

I like the way they mock at me, it makes me feel sad.

It makes me feel this world is so small and that amazes me.

I perfected the cycle.

I know every step they make, I know every action they will carve.

I will not question again why people will betray somebody.

Well, its their nature. It's their fucking hobby.

I will not ask anything in return.

Like they care if I am freaking kind to them.

They don't value anything.

They value things, they love.

They value things in a shallow manner.

Selfish, just selfish.

If they will go to a pilgrim I am sure they will kill each other

for things they need, for things they desire.

I hate being used but I am somehow used to it.